For a long time I have struggled with the idea of work.
Mainly because I never see myself fit in any mass corporate institution.
I have been holding myself back with what I would like to have as work because I constantly doubt its realism.
I believe God gave us gifts in order to use them.
And we all know God wants us to be happy.
The important thing here though is, we don’t let ourselves be happy because we feel we aren’t doing what is right- what society expects from us.
We can do the things we love to do. Its the same as any other mass producing job- you still have to put forth effort, physical and mental.
The main task though, is to believe.
That YOUR GOALS AND DREAMS ARE POSSIBLE.
And to never lose sight of that.
And if your like me- when at times you let other people get you down because they are probably jealous and therefor mad at you for being happy (because you are actually doing something you love), don’t.
Don’t ever let anyone make you feel bad because they themselves aren’t happy. Sometimes unhappiness in people comes from a root problem they are having trouble dealing with.
Be their friend- be nice to them.
There may be something you can help them with. If they are willing to accept that is…
Go on, get with ya bad self! Be happy! And don’t forget to push yourself to do the “work” you want to.
One Love. 💗
Anyone that knows me knows that I am a believer in motivating people and all good intentions. I am a stander for justice, for whats right and whats wrong and always wish to fight the good fight (if I am fighting for anything).
I was visiting a friend recently when her sister mentioned to me a lady by the name of Lena Horne.
“Lena Horne? Ive never heard of her.” I told her.
She said that I reminded her of her and that I should watch a movie she was in.
Today I stumbled upon my note I had taken that night to look it up, and so today I did.
Turns out, me and Ms Lena Horne have quite a bit in common.
She was a civil rights activist, a stander for justice especially in the struggle for black and white equality. She was an actress, a singer, and a dancer.
This was incredibly humbling to read. I always feel I was born in the wrong time period with the way that I see things. I can’t help but feel we are at least somewhat connected in spirit. As I feel many other women (and men) are connected with many other artists from the past. Perhaps she is one my many animal totems. 🙂 It just feels good to know of people who think and feel the same way about things. And if not, I am definitely learning something from her. The courage that I have been trying to manifest in myself.
Her music, and the music I have been creating-all speak in the standing for justice. In giving your own self a voice, in being you, and not feeling ashamed for it whatsoever. Just being REAL with people. She has the character that only a few close friends know I carry. Humorous, yet serious all at the same time.
I am glad my friends sister introduced me to her that night, and I am glad today I reopened my notes. I am definitely inspired to keep doing what I am doing, going where I am going, and to not be afraid!
I love her story telling character here. Ive always loved that kinda stuff!
And of course, this one…
Is there any historical figures you feel you connect with? Do you know of any I might be interested in learning about? Id be happy to do more research.
Have a good day and happy spring equinox to you! Jenny L T
So lately, I met with a healer. She really helped me realign myself and cleanse. After I met with her I started cleansing more myself and everything more often, I also began meditating more often as well. Its a strange feeling to following your intuition, when usually modern society is telling you to do this and do that, and go here and go there, and YOU HAVE TO MAKE MONEY. But you just know that it is right to do so.
I take it with every oz of gratitude that I have spaces to reside and meditate. I always ask for guidance as I pray, and for protection from evil. For I am on this earth to do good, and I know it.
I feel the week went by and sometimes I felt stagnant, but I quickly tried to make the most of my time where I was, cleaning and organizing-attempts to make the space clear and right, all with good intention.
I feel these things have worked for me-then I felt that the flow was happening to fluidly and I sunk back into comfort. Into the things I know do not serve me. I tell myself its all about patience, for I am not perfect. I know these things take time.
But I also know that the universe will unfold for me if I am ready for it to. And when I am ready, I will be completely open and not fall back and not hesitate. I have been hesitating…and finding excuses.
So I am here to ask—in which ways do you stay on your path?
What seems to help you when the distractions in life come at you on the constant? What is it that keeps you going? Stones? Meditation? Chanting?
I feel being on top of nutrition is important.
Getting enough sleep is important.
Following your gut is important (even in times when you really wish you didn’t have to )
Educate myself as much as possible is important, and if I can learn from someone, I should.
I am in search for a Hindu Master to learn from. In reading my Bhagavid-Gita, I am aware that this is important to keep me on my path.
When my head is in circles, about where I am headed- feeling stagnant more often than not- I feel Ill never reach the top.
My problem is, I have too much expectation of where the top really is, or what it looks like.
If you think you NEED to go somewhere to do something, you don’t-there are resources all around you. Take some time to yourself and do yo thang. If you are SUPPOSED to be somewhere else to learn something, then you will know when the time is right to go there. But I have a feeling, that as long as you keep doing what you love, you will get there either way. Do what makes you come alive.
Live in Love, and Love with no fear.
Is this a Love Letter my friend?
For I wish to taste all the mastery that there is to find in all the magical things.
For I think about this often-see.
Something just doesn’t seem alright to me.
Maybe its in my Rushing we.
The way I’m normally Rushing things.
How am I supposed to tell these things?
Maybe it’s just not the right time you see.
Just as I shouldn’t be Rushing things-
I know that I shouldn’t be Rushing we.
I’m always trying to find out-
just why it wouldn’t work-
creating even more problems for myself-
comes to show how much more I need to learn.
There is no problem with you-
The problem arises with me.
The problem arises with me.
You teach me to enjoy all the little things-
you teach me to slow down.
You make me feel like the world will not collapse-
every time I yield a frown.
So I think to myself-
Why not choose Love?
It makes all much easier to deal.
Maybe I just feel I have not yet earned it-
to live my life I have yet still.
Although…I see my heart could end with you-
because who doesn’t appreciate such Love?
For theres nothing wrong with someone so patient and daring-
to stick around a Flux.
And such Flux I do still yield-
—I don’t know how to divide our time—
And I should face the fact of how scared I can be-
to deal with life alone.
It’s difficult in finding that balance between living for myself and no one else.
I must seek to fight the void I’ve noticed-
one thats eager to be filled.
How I used to never be one to be noticed-
& I am dealing with that still.
It feels alright to receive attention-
but not in the way that has begun to persist.
I think in all the ways to receive attention-
I’m more eager to have it be
The truth of the matter is-that I must learn how to be on my own.
I must learn to LOVE MYSELF…BY MYSELF. This is challenging.
That is not saying that I should isolate myself all the time ( I know this, I am nothing without help from others), but I simply must work on being okay with getting uncomfortable with life, and not having a “boyfriend” to hold onto. It is merely a challenge I am setting myself to face-and might just be the hardest thing I ever do.
I believe I am at a stage in my life where I have come to realize that I should not rush things. There is a part of me that is oh so used to having something. Something. Something. Someone. There. All the time. My past comes back to haunt me as I used to not always be an “attractive” human being to man. Now, apparently- I am.
I told a friend recently that I used to never get that kind of attention-and I think thats a void that my subconscious has been wanting to fill. And it’s okay to have that for a while, but it’s also kind of disturbing-that such exterior factors may determine someones point of view on a person. I dislike that more thank I like it.
So I am noting that I am aiming instead to focus my energy on helping people and building greatly inspiring and positive friendships-not by seeking their attention. I know there is a light in me that turns on every time I have a discussion about fitness, exercise, health, well being. I guess I have battled quite a road and I want others to be open to the positive possibilities there is out there for them. Things that have helped me too-while of course keeping my mind open-for I am forever too, a student.
I also want to help other people-because I believe that each one of them has something they can teach me too.
So in that time, I aim to enjoy every day, fall in love with myself,fall in love with nature, take care of myself, go on adventures, embrace the body I’m living in and learn to still connect with other people. Helping them with whatever challenges they too may face. I want them to know that they are not alone-
and I know that neither am I as long as I keep myself open to communication and learning-
all at my own individual pace.
Love my FAMILY, love my FRIENDS, love my LIFE and the JOURNEY it is taking me on.
JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP, DOESN’T MEAN YOU CANNOT LOVE.