So this weekend, a list of Open Mics literally fell into my lap.
Okay so someone handed it to me…along with 2 simple hand bound books full of poetry and even one stack of papers that were all simply stapled together.
Its really interesting how life works, its like its telling me, “hey, get ready for this and just do it.”
I sat and listened to these folks spill out their stories right in front of us. Speaking your thoughts out loud is almost like vomiting in front of a group of people and seeing how they will take it.
It helps to watch others you know, because you come to find that most people are there to share their thoughts, play with words, and actually don’t really care what someone else will think about how or what they are saying. Of course it can always help with confidence when someone gives a pat on the back or says, “hey, thanks for sharing”.
Interesting too, just the other day I was engaged in my tutoring session with a young lady, going over the different parts of a poem and helping her break down the one she was required to read. Its all a learning experience for me too because I don’t necessarily remember exactly whats what.
and I feel its just like me , I love writing and have being doing it for such a long time…there are some things I wish for the world to hear and there are some things I wish to keep to myself. Sometimes its just for the fun of it, to see how words can be manipulated and morphed.
And at times, its just better to never say anything at all, I think.
The fact that poetry and song writing can go hand in hand, pretty much amplifies my interest as well as I gain an increase in making melodies. I never thought about being an “MC” or putting my words into song of any type for that matter, but I feel I have grown a respect for the art of it as I have been introduced to various styles of hip hop music in the past couple of months. Ive also learned that your more likely to get your point across through music being that music is something that everyone shares an interest for. Not everyone will like what you are trying to say, or might not even understand it. But its all in knowing that those who should understand it will, and those who don’t maybe aren’t trying hard enough. People speak so many different languages these days…you must also embrace that you can’t get through to everyone if you are trying.
Also the many soulful voices I have listened to over the years will never lose a place in my heart.
But of course, this will all take shape on its own, and when it should, and I am not rushing, although I wish I could. But I know all too well that rushing into anything will get me all caught up in this cycle again.
All I really need to focus on right now, is the simple idea of learning how to stand.